“She’s
So Fake”
Contrary
to belief, I don’t like bringing up things from the past. I’ve worked really
hard at “accepting, processing, and letting go” some trivial phases and moments
in my life. I know it may not look it but my life hasn’t been all make-up,
pose, and model-model. I have stories, bruises and still some open wounds due
to “life”, it hasn’t always been “pretty”, believe me.
But
in part of growing up, realizing and wanting more in life, I have to let the
past be actually what is. It happened, its part of my life, but it isn’t my whole life and I choose to live; one of
my many missions in life. With that being said, let me direct this conversation
in a more “let’s be real” level.
Here me out.
It’s
no secret that I take full advantage of social media. I have multiple accounts
that I update on very much tried regular basis. Beautylish: @bmynroe ; Facebook:
RaChelle-Denise; Instagram:
@bmynroe Twitter: @BMynroe; Tumblr: @bmynroe and YouTube: @BMynroe (in the making).
I do have others that are under construction but
it would literally take a personal assistant to start, monitor, and update them
all. I am only one woman, who is beginning to build her own foundation and dare
I say, brand.
I
honestly do work hard, some may think it’s just a game and I can understand how
I can make it look easy and care-free--- it’s part of the brand and image. I do
it well, I must say so myself.
In
updating and checking my accounts yesterday I couldn’t help but be drawn to
this picture that I just honestly took on a whim. I had come home from work and
had gotten into my “house clothes”, braided up my hair because I wasn’t
planning on doing anything more. And while lying in the middle of my bed,
watching a re-run of “Family Guy”, playing on my phone, I just decided to snap
a picture of me “candid”. I was bored
with no plans. The camera becomes my toy. It’s crazy but it’s the truth, don’t
judge.
???
I may
be labeled an “anti-social” person on a personal level but I do know how the
public and media are done and handled. I studied it in school, so I put myself
in the general public’s view and I begin to question and really analyze the
picture. I am part of the social world, looking to make a name for myself, so I
would be a fool not to put my knowledge to work and begin revising myself.
And in doing so I began to see an image and
message that could be portrayed: FAKE
AS HELL!
I
was so surprised at how much this picture could be mistaken. It truly was “lost
in translation”.
“Are people really supposed to believe that I am bored looking
like "this"? Are people really supposed to be buying that? No wonder people
may think I’m fake! It makes me look so full of shit!”
I
get it, I do. But let me assure you that EVERYTHING that I do, post, and talk
about is real. I don't put on a show for people. I just live MY life and I
enjoy sharing it with others. May it be that I gain an audience by it with my
many endeavors: blogging, make-up, teaching, writing—fantastic! Because aside
from personal goals it means that I have
put my much-deserved Journalism degree to use. It has not been in vain.
The truth is yes, this picture is me after a long day of work, looking
like this; bored. No show.
This
is not directed to anyone in particular, it's just something that I have
observed myself. And if I can see it, I know others can. So for more of a personal
reason, I wanted to acknowledge and address that.
I
understand I can come off as fake and phony, I do. But I assure you I am real
and genuine with everything I do. I may come off superficial. I will admit that
I have some extreme superficial characteristics and some narcotic tendencies. It’s
the ugly truth. I may be pretty but I’m far from perfect. At the end of the
day, I am very much a flawed human. And I use this social media account to express and show that because
if I don’t tell my side of the story, there would only be lies.
Yours Truly,
-BMynroe
(RaChelle-Denise)
